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  • AureumTempus@lemmy.worldtoProgramming@programming.dev•What is your favorite programming language?
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    1 year ago

    Because I wanted to make cool software. I wanted to make my own micro-kernel, or maybe my own game engine, and monetize on that, maybe create a new type of system software or work for companies like Couchbase or Redis. I was lied that graduating with a bachelor’s degree in computer science will make me proficient in that. I was lied that my job will be stable, and that I don’t have to worry about anything, and that interviews are a piece of cake. I didn’t learn shit in those four years, I just “passed” somehow. The lectures were all boring and crap, all of it was just rote-learning, and nothing about actually discovering something new. With the exception of programming, I have not a clue of Computer Architecture, Digital Systems Design, RDBMS, Object-Oriented Modelling, just to name a few. Now I’m stuck with learning about web development, I hate looking at anything related to NodeJS bundlers or JSX snippet. SvelteKit makes it a bit tolerable. And even when I work on “projects” for the sake of jobs, there’s no sense of achievement. What’s even more draining is that I’ve been jobless for about a year. I was barred from placements because I was “mentally unfit”, just because I shared my personal problems with the university professor who breached my trust. I’ve stopped applying anywhere, I’ve lost my peace of mind, I have insomnia, lost the sense of time, multiple body eczema that keeps appearing even after treating, as well as a dangling rectum since about a year which I can’t pay for, my parent’s debt as well as mine, and a junk of a degree that won’t even help me secure a master’s degree. Career-wise, I’m two years behind my peers, and the worst part is, they’re independent in their early 20s, while I’m not.