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I’ve been getting back into Christianity lately for a variety of reasons but I’ve also been doing a lot of research into the history and philosophy and whatnot and reconciling:

that outer sphere of what all these different people over the centuries have written and decided to include or exclude from their various compilations and what motivated them morally or especially politically to do so

vs

the inner sphere of my own lived experience with what does and does not make the world a better place and what motivations exist in the modern day to practice or interpret those centuries of texts in one way or another

and honestly it’s actually been really interesting from an academic perspective as well. It’s a fascinating combination of history, language, culture, and even what influences it’s had on the sciences over time like I recently wound up learning some stuff about early geometry and the ways metaphysical interpretation of mathmetical concepts have affected the architecture of churches.

and that actually led me to creating this gif of how Metatron’s Cube is constructed using basic geometric concepts with a compass and straightedge. The animated circles were specifically programmed in FMS logo it was a really fun way to spend my weekend.

the only “um akshually” I would even bother adding to this is that the Torah / Pentateuch is just the first five books of the Tanakh, which is the best / closest approximation of books that later became the Christian old testament. The Tanakh also includes the Prophets (Nevi’im), and the Writings (Ketuvim). There’s also a few books in there that the council of Nicaea (the council of og old Catholic dudes who decided which books were true or not) chose not to include. Also relevant is the Septuagint which was the first translation from Hebrew into a mainstream language (which at the time was Koine Greek) which is relevant because that specific translation has had a profound effect on translations since, which really hammers in that concept of “a translation of a translation of a translation of-”

And trinitarianism specifically is basically just a reason to wage wars. I was raised in a trinitarian denomination and I still mostly consider myself Christian but I can’t reconcile my morals with waging literal wars over fucking metaphysics.

the only news I subscribe to are Reuters, WikiNews, and the pew research panel. it’s really done my mental health a lot of good.

eh. there’s also polka.

well first I’d take an extension cord to goodwill

it’s funny because I’m AFAB but NB with a husband and I’m the one who gets the man-flu.

got hubs one because I couldn’t afford a steam deck for his birthday. he loves it. I never see him play it at home (I think because the actual computer is here) but every once in a while he’ll mention having played x or y retro game and he has covered the ENTIRE thing in Simpsons stickers.

so you can study stuff and do coursework but you gotta make it really easy to do accidentally. when I got a paper to write I would make a google drive folder with the project outline and a template for the paper including a reference sheet. I would lazily look up sources occasionally and add the pdfs to the folder and easybib / citation machine them into the reference section by doi. at that point it would be a matter of when the paper would get written, not if. the dopamine would just hit suddenly when I’m having an IBS shit at 2am and “oops. I wrote a research paper.” I accidentally wrote so many papers while shitting. one time I set all of it up and went to bed and turned out one of the group members was also ADHD because when I woke up she’d accidentally done the whole thing while I was asleep. 10/10 method.